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hey i'm in class right now. very bored. the teacher's teaching me to put in the date on my word document. thats real hard and i need help. i should raise my hand and ask. jeez what am i doing in this class? alright well today's gonna be a busy day i have class till 1130 ouch! then 3-5 i have ingles. then work at 4 -10 i close. yeeah thats right i'm gonna be like an hour late to work.. crap stupid manager hey it ain't my fault she knew i was at school at the time but shes still makin me work. what a retard.. ehh she's a pretty kool gal when you get to know her though. i just better not get in trouble tonight. oh my parents went to hawaii today with my sister. i wish i went with them. They're going to maui then oahu . oh what fun. too bad i already went. no not really i had fun. party at my house! i wish .. sorry people no money well not enough to feed all of you and by those drinks.... hmm plus my aunt n uncle n grandma live with me so they'll be home, but they dont care what i do. i'll just drop by home like around 10 after work or something then go back out and stay out as late as i want. well maybe not as late as i want because this girl has school now...... oh man.. school's a bore right now. oh i have a speech to do tomorrow for my speech class.. kinda scared you know me talking in front of people .. huh carolyn.. not very good with that especially in kuntzy's class.. i wish i do well. life's confusing.. i wonder why.... damn alright im gonna stop now. im hungry... anyone want to grab early lunch with me ? give me a call...

Buonasera. Non parlo italiano (molto bene). ( I don't speak much italian).. yeah well i got back into the italian thing. it was my first day of school. kinda long day. went to school like aroiund 9 or something, had class at 930, could not find any parking at all. so i was fed up with those stupid cars and decided to park at the residential areas. nope no ticket i was very happy... well yeah went into my first class... oh man i was way ahead.. cuz you know we did go to a classical high school... oh yeah baby.. my first instruction was oh so very hard lets see how to turn on your computer.. jeez what a hard concept. yeah it was so ridiculous i was so bored. i met this girl lindsey she was kool we were just making fun at the teacher. she was alright i guess but the class was still pointless. i know you're probably thinking why im in it. its kinda a requirement for my major so i had to take it. my next class wasn't until 300 but then i decided to go to another class to check it out and see if i liked it better. it wouldve been perfect if she gave out those petition cards right then and there but shes waiting until wednesday or maybe even next monday so im not sure if i'll still stick it out there because my next class was the same subject. i just wanted to see if i could get the earlier one. but if not its alright because the one at 3 was pretty alright. the teacher was cool he reminded me of joey from friends. but with crappy teeth. yeah seems like a down to earth guy which could be an advantage since the other teacher was really serious and kinda creepy. saw a bunch of people today to. oh well thats school. hey did i forget to mention that samantha's gone. she left on saturday night. yeah it rained pretty bad at her house.. i kinda flooded her house with tears... well no. of course there was a few tears but yea i still miss her. i actually talked to her today it made my day. i should go. i have some things to do. i'll blog real soon. cuz i think now i'll have more time since my best friend's gone....... =(

crap. ok well its been a long while since i've written. just been real busy ya know? i saw jill yesterday at old navy.. man its been since grad day since the last time i've seen her or any of you. i also watch my man yesterday on the big screen. yeah katrina's got a new leading man... oh yeah colin farrell. . well yeah i did that friendsters thing oh man i should've just listened to my cousin and stayed far away from it because this guy emailed me out of nowhere. you guys should remember him. he was my xchange student sokhen or some sh*t. yeah that short guy who was really annoying.. oh man bad memories.. i think athena would remember him we were making fun of him that time.. sorry im so mean. no just really depressed my friends are leaving soon =( i have like only one week with them and i still havent seen all my friends this summer. i feel horrible. hey this wednesday lets go to the beach bonfire!!!! its gonna be like this whole going away thing for all of us.. well yea me going to lBcc! yeah! im gonna go now i'll try to write more frequently. ok see ya

morning y'all... im about to pick up my scores from my placement tests at lbcc.. im trying to get out of that orientation thing ,, wish me luck. im so tired and lazy today. yeah my last day of no work. im off today, these three days were very good. well i have to go.. just wanted to blog.. i'll blog later.

Hey stranger. It's been such a long time since i've written, but i guess its worth the wait. it's late sunday night. i've been enjoying the day with my family. it's been such a long time since i've spent the day with them, well with work and all. it was fun even though all we did was go to the mall and eat. at this moment i'm watching a second round of LUCKY 7. It's such a good movie. i recommend it, but im pretty sure it only plays on television because its a family romantic special. hmm all that romance is making me a little sick in the head. my summer's been great so far. well i couldn't ask for more. well maybe. i wish i had more time to spend. and i wish that this summer wouldn't end. i wish i'd have more time with sam. i wish the heat wouldn't be too hot and i wish i wouldn't be so confused.. i wish i could also see my friends. things haven't been the same. its not a bad thing but things could be better in some ways. work's work.. after vacation stuff's been happening and not all good. my friend got into a car accident with her boyfriend. and unfortunately he passed away. only 20 years old, *R.I.P Brandon* i recently just saw my friend and i felt so awful but at the same time happy she's alright. Then there's this thing with Charles.. you all know him as my escort, my best friend. yeah well lately he hasn't been all there. Things kinda died down after graduation or the time of graduation. i guessed we just both moved on. Its been real hard with the both of us. just too much bickering and fighting and more bickering and me shouting and him shouting and blah. im so tired of it i just hang up now. i know we're both to blame but when we make up and say sorry it ends up bad again after like 5 mins. ahh.. then there it happened again. his friend got into a car accident. this guy he was suppose to hook me up with last year. Al got into some trouble off-roading at the desert and died.* R.I.P. Al * i wanted to be there for him or i still want to be there for him but i haven't talked to him about it and i dont know. we're just not in good terms. on the lighter side before all this happened i had just came back on my trip to hawaii, with a few of my friends. let me start on hawaii.. im sure you'll enjoy this. the first day we got there we were all excited sam, nicole and me of course. trip no parents well with the exception of sam's mom and sister there for like 2 days because of their family reunion but we were pretty much on our own. it was an awesome trip. hmm let's start again. first day off to the beach. just walked around everywhere and got to know places, people, boys. you know the good stuff. we went to pipeline that night. this club near waikiki. it wasnt on the strip so we needed transportation of course. we got hooked up with sam's cousin's old friend from school. he was a decent guy who went clubbing with us. many many many guys at pipeline. it was fun my first time clubbing. danced with this guy. things were going alright i guess but i wasnt into him. then i met a few friends. his name's paul and i forgot his other friends. he lives in west covina. it was kool because his friend knew sam's cousin so we all hung out together. it kinda felt like we were all following each other on the trip because we pretty much got there the same time and left the same time. saw them almost everywhere went. paul was kool. really got a hold on life. he knew what he wanted and was such a great guy. but there again wasnt interested in anything just friends. while the other girls looked for guys or had a "date" with those army brats i spent my time with paul. he was a cool hangout bud. went to the beach he was going to teach me to surf but then had no time. alright enough about paul. i should call him sometime to see what he's up to maybe i will this week just to say hi. hmm the next night we went to another club called umm wait no zanzabar, um its called.. oh man i forgot. it was good. the music was great. the people were great. and yet again more freaks.... oh yeah that day sam's aunt who also was kind enough to drive us around treated us to todai this japanese restaurant .. all you can eat baby... yea you know me went once, twice , thrice.. or opps thats the band i mean went 3 times... and finally meant a guy who i became really interested in, but hey get this katrina became the shy one.. i could not talk to guys i had no balls in this trip. i guess i had something haning on my shoulder thats why.. and you guessed it right.. his name is jeff!
we'll get to that later. ok this guy at todai. his name's kyle. met him gave my number got his number. went out that night to just hang out. he picked us up and brought up to meet his friends . they were pretty laid back.. my kind of people.. i became really mellow and chill lately maybe because of work im too tired to do things.. anyways we got to know each other and became interested but at the same time i was just confused. but then reality hit me i was in paradise.. nothing could hold me back. the next night or something like that we hung out again but just the two of us. he took me to this spot where we could see the whole island. well it looked like the whole island. it was gorgeous. amazing view. i've never seen such a beautiful spot.. i was in heaven.... really i was. he was such a gentlemen too. yea ya ya.. get this he goes to school in california... he's 19... he's been going to loyola marymount and just goes back to hawaii for the summer.. hmm he's back on aug 25 or something.. we got to know each other pretty well. we havent kept in touch but its a good thing.. trust me it just is. well let's just say i do owe him for driving us or i did.. if he called i wouldnt hang up but no one would know he called except me.. so far the phone hasnt rung and im hoping it wont. things were at its climax when we went to north shore. went jet skiing, met these soccer boys.. ate shaved ice. or drank or whatever. shopping... get tanned. paradise is just so nice.... went to a luau, and met the third guy there... his name's racer.. yes thats his real name.. thats not the only odd thing .. he is also 19 just like paul and kyle and also resides in california for school.. loyola marymount to be exact. yeah my jaw dropped. he was the guy who all the people at the luau gets to take a picture with and have as a little rememberance..umm yeah very very hot gorgeous and what a nice body.... oh both kyle and racer half white and chinese...just a lil side note.. damn so sorry this blog is so long.. i guess thats what i get for not writing so soon. well i understand if you stopped because of your eyes hurting from squinting. but i guess this is my release from everything. id write it down but the comp is so much faster.. nothing came from racer until the night before we left which was the last time i saw him. kyle took us on an adventure ride one day. he took us cliff jumping/diving at waimea bay. all three of us jumped off this cliff. it was such a great release. we knew we had to do it. got a bruise from it but its gone now...id do it all over again. i guess i'll stop there with hawaii...cuz the rest was just pretty much saying good bye too all the people we met and jsut plainly have a lot of fun. back to reality back to work, and back to jeff. and no we're not together.. its been like 2 months since prom and we've gotten a lot closer.. we overcame this really big issue and it made me realize something. all that time i guess i denied him because 1. i didnt think i was ready for another guy after the almost 2 year span of getting over mr.. # 31.. yeah i was over him a long time ago but i just didnt want to start something and end up getting hurt again just as bad. well that was my second reason.. fear of getting hurt so avoiding jeff was probably the easiest thing for me to do.. then i finally gave in and decided why not take a chance and it brought me here.. he's currently at florida with his brother and also his teammates. he called me earlier and told me his team made the finals so im really happy for him. he gets back on wednesday and i've been doing real well without talking to him or seeing him.. no im not his girlfriend. and no rush into being it.. im having fun but at the same time things do get confusing and i feel like jumping off that cliff all over again. who knows, there are many cliffs in california... well school starts in a month for me. so soon.. my summer's ending so fast. and im not ready yet . not ready for it to all end.. im gonna watch that movie again. its replaying and i want to watch it so until... hmmm next time.. for sure i'll blog soon. maybe tomorrow? so yea... i'll talk soon...

HEY gALS! oh i miss you all soo much. i think im going crazy and its only two days into vacay... well i almost freaked out like 10 mins ago when i realized it was tuesday and it was street sweeping day. yea i ran out and moved my truck. gladly there was no notice of a ticket on my window. whew! well i really miss everyone... you should all call me sometime cuz im really bored. so far i just realized that we wont be all together every morning at park ave. chatting and waiting for that first bell to ring at 730 in the morning. yea you know parking's a bitch but we dont have to worry about that now or that stupid idiot who does those damn u turns. i was about to cry cuz when i woke up this morning i was thinking about that and all. but hey we're not old.. not yet. yesterday i went to 3 beaches.. hey go figure i got a lil lost. but it wasnt my fault because this girl who's sam's cousin told us the wrong beach. i got really mad because i wasted gas.. oh well that means no driving for a while. well only to important places like work and well thats pretty much it. so far summer's wierd the weather i mean. its just crazy. oh hey i found out that they mailed out report cards yesterday so we'll be getting it by next week .. so watch out. yea i failed math. no surprise. oh well there's always college. yea so hmmm... gradnite was alright. better than being at home sleeping well not really id much rather get rest then get hypnotize.... lol sure.. yea so if you haven't heard yet i got hypnotized. ehh i guess.. it got really retarded after five minutes.. but it was fun. i'll just never do it again . lalalala...
oh yea so guys im going to hawaii next friday.. and i'll be back the 4th of july.. hopefully we all can hang out before i leave. carolyn, gissel, you still having a sleep over? just call i'll be at home or at work.. well call my cell i guess.. blah.. i miss you all!!!!! oh anyways i've got issues.. lots of them. ok im exaggerating but i do and it sucks.... where's the violin when you need it? hmm am i forgetting anything? i hope not. oh yea that jeff thing. ehh... not so sure... just friends though. wanna tell him? cuz i have no balls at this moment.. i really dont want to make anything of anything because i ain't feelin anything... hmm and its not just him , i mean it generally.... i cant handle this shit anymore.... i'm getting shit from people and i shouldnt.. damn i'll blog tonight for sure and tell you all about my crap....
im gonna clean my room now. hope you guys are having fun! i miss you all have i said that too much? well i do...

Four more days till graduation not including the weekend. graduation wow. i can't believe i'm actually going to experience it next week. when i think about it it seems all too fast now. i have recollections of things but it seems like time needs to just stop or rewind which ever comes first so we can all relive the memories we had together. it never hit me until the beginning of this week. people kept mentioning to me that i'm going to miss high school because of the obvious that it is the best four years of my life. i never believed that i thought parts of it were good other parts were stupid and the rest just ultimately sucked. let's see as i think back freshmen year was a good experience but nothing really stood out for me, sophomore year was proabably my best year so far tieing with senior year because i actually had a lot of memories and i could still remember all the things i did but when junior year started that was a major turning point i guess for all of us. at first it sucked you know all the new things we encountered together new school, new friends, new environment but we all turned out pretty damn well, i think so. but i wish i didn't screw around with school but unfortuantely i did. i guess that whole challenging myself thing went too fast and i couldn't grasp myself well enough to hold on. but i got through with all of you. i really am sorry if it felt like there were times that i excluded myself from the group meaning my lonely moods where id just sit and listen and not talk. i guess i didn't find myself "fitting in" with all of you because you were all friends before and i didnt want to be just added in. i know it might seem too late to mention this but i just wanted all of you to know. hoepfully you get to read this before graduation because i really want all of you to know that i'm going to miss you.. each and everyone of you. even if all we did is hang out at school during lunch time or in class my whole high school experience began at st. anthony with all of you and ended here at wilson with all of you and i really don't regret anything because i had fun. sometimes it might not seem that way but i did have fun. Thanks girls for always being there... please let's try to keep in touch hey we should all meet occassionally for some girly girl fun if you know what i mean.... well i personally dont know what that means but we should anyways ... and if we should all meet up once again dessert's on me.. don't forget i might be still working at claim jumper so feel free to stop by anytime , hopefully im there.. maybe i could bump your wait up so you dont have to wait like an hour for a table.. dont worry i'll hook you up just pretend you don't know me and just mention it's your birthday and i'll do the rest... i love you all!!!!! take care always...
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